Hi There, today was one of those days where nothing went right.  24 hands, most of which were painful.  We failed to anything that was right.  The best we were was average.  I was not a happy partner and probably made my partner very unhappy.  I am sorry and my stomach hurts.  When it comes to fight or flight, I am the flight person.  So when I am tied to my chair by the rules and cannot run, get away and start anew a new day, I become really frustrated.  I should have taken a xanax.  The harder I tried the worse it got. Anyway, how do I change,  can I learn from having cancer?  I do what they say and accept the protocol.  Why cant I relax and accept our zeros without preaching.  Yuck, really hate my personality flaw.  I comes from my training in bridge.  I was yelled at and ridiculed as I learned advanced concepts in bridge.  You pass that on, and its really bad.  I whined alot today.  No more whining. 
So I have these really strange twinges on the graph, I feel an itch, I reach up to scratch and it is the graph that has no feeling!  And I cannot find the source of the itch.  Is that weird? 
I wish you all a Happy Easter and Happy Passover.  God bless you and your familys.  Thanks for putting up with me, I am not perfect. 
I think I am healing as fast as possible.  The scabs are almost all gone.  Radiation will start Tuesday 9:15 and 4, six weeks. 

I look drunk, I am.  Cheers.