Time to report on my feelings.  Through busy times at the club, praying hard for the AS warriors who are fighting for their lives, and trying to keep personal relationships on an even keel, I just have to say Paul is my rock.  He is the strongest person I have ever known and loves me so much that feel safe and free to be myself.  Not everyone likes me, I don't understand it but it's true. 
My health is better than I deserve, thank you God.  I think I have medicare and medigap in place, even a rx plan and a dental plan.  I think I will schedule scans in January or February. 
I keep in touch with the derm doc.  Time to see a dentist. 
I want a new car, I want a new toothbrush (sonicare black), I want a fitbit (I think). But mostly, I want to lose weight and only I can give that to me. 
I have little hairs growing from the incision and back to my hair line, strange,  you can almost count them.  I don't think the graft has hair follicles, whew!
Anyway, rough week. Very emotional, depression not allowed.  Happy Manager, Happy Club.  My goal is to have a happy club.  So onward we go, hopefully learning and becoming better.

I wont see my family at Christmas,  I will be with my bridge family and Paul. Merry Christmas and God Bless You.